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| well its going to be a very crazy week, i realy have no idea what to do....my father just past away and i realy have know one to talk to about it till i see my family in a few days....god this suck so much i have to act like nothing is bothering me so i can get through these few days till i go to see everyone...at witch time i will probably loose my mind. but i have to act like nothing happened till then so i can get through these few days of class..i am glad i got to see him one last time but i wish i could have spent more time with him out side of the hospital but any way i will beout there again very soon. | | |
| So lets see I just found out that my dad has 6 months left to live and I cant quit figure out how to handle this info I mean I know he had cancer but what now. I have not been in the greatest of moods lately but what now. I have been drinking and now I’m writing. I have all so learned that someone has been lying about events that took place and that pisses me off as well. Fuck, what the hell is going on here. Well there is nothing I can do but let it be. But I know that I will have to realize that the world is just fucked up. So this is all I have to say today. | | |
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what can i say to day.. I think I will vent on the fact that people just are a bunch of stupid liars…people seem to think if they lie everyone must, and it’s ok that they lie since everyone else is. What kind of bullshit is this? O and the stupid excuse of "I didn’t want to hurt anyone" hay truth hurts grow up and live up to the reality of life. I am sick of the lies in a relationship those are classic. The fucked up thing about that is we want to believe so bad the we take it in almost all the time...stupid bull shit; like I want to be with you for ever and I love you more then you know. Or I can’t even start to explain how I feel. “and how can you explain something that you don’t feel; tell me that". This world is slowly falling into darkness and it seems no one cares. sure things seem better now then they did in the dark ages but we don’t really know that .we just know we would hate not having technology. Maybe this is just a calm before the storm, that wipes out humanity. What ever, all I know is I will never brake who I am for anything especially a lie. Good luck all you troglodytes and take care those of you who are still with the act of true self.
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| well here i am by request, if you are interested in reading more you can go to
but any way what have i been up to well let me see i have made a 6min film that is very silly .its about ddr, dance dance revolution. i may be posting it on the web some time i will let you know if i do. Things are going well. i never know what to say on these things. well still trying to let some things go as they may. but it can be hard some times. i have decided that i have to just give up on the search for companionship all it ever seems to do is get you hurt so what’s the point. it so much easier to be single any way. . | | |
| well here I am again not much to say. back to school for me. thing seem strang know always thinking about thing that hold me back ...i got to stop that i geuss and just move forward. | | |
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